Okay...this is an inspired description....the inspiration was quite close to me....not much but still. I knew a bit of him.....and was unraveling him (now don't get me wrong on this) as we spent a lot of time together.....
Once there was a guy....a simple guy from a small town located somewhere in India, born in a religious family with decent teachings and principles. Had a family of 4 - Himself, his parents and his younger brother.
His father was the sole bread winner of the family. He used to study in a decent government school. He was also a brilliant and talented child, earning quite a few accolades in his growing years, and had all the impetus to make himself and people around him happy in whatever resources he had at his disposal. In short he was very content with what he got from his parents, though his parents never stopped him from doing anything and rather encouraged him to take risks. He had ambitions to make his and his family's life better. He knew only one thing that its his family which has to be considered first in whatever decision he would take in future.
Since he took science in his +2 course and because he had the notion that he would do better in Engg rather than in any other stream, he wrote competitive exams. The first year did not yield anything much except a seat in his state colleges and a not-so-good rank in AIEEE. So he determined to crack them the next year, for which he even joined a coaching institute. The same institute, which helped his cousin to materialise his dream of getting into IIT-B. When the results came, he missed out the cut-offs by a very thin line. So he had to give other exams, where his marks were fair enough to get him a good seat in a top-notch college/university. Instead of going for the type of branch he opted for brand name of the institute. Got into NIT, his haven for next four years. It was this place which took him on a roller-coaster ride and his life would be much different from what it used to be.
He met some new people who were going to change his life completely, a change about which he never knew or contemplated. People, some of whom where going to be his best buddies and some who will stand on the other side. And there were a very few people who were going to be something more than just buddies. The first year of college went, as for anyone else, into ragging and stuff , though his ragging could not be taken lightly as he belonged to such a region of India, whose seniors behave inhumanely. He did all the chores his seniors asked him to do, and went all those places where he never expected himself to be. So it was at this time when he found solace in unexpected places. He gelled with people whom he might had despised at one point of time. Then came the welcome party after which he finally got included in the motley crew of his seniors. It was also the time when something very interesting happened. He met someone.
Though a studious kind of kid, but not those nerd types, he had the traits of a big flirt. He had quite a few female friends in his school life. One of them even had a crush on him. But he did not want to get into all that, just friendly relations. So talking to a girl came naturally to him. Also by this time he was quite popular among other people in the institute. But this particular female had the right vibes to entice him into talking to her. That talk did not result into anything but it did give them a chance to look forward. Then came a major event which gave him another chance to ponder over this relation since the college was closed due to neglect of authorities in proper functioning of the system. After he came back, he thought this is the time to act, later than this would only be a loss. He proposed to her. She was a bit skeptical because of her family background. He said he would care take of everything. She agreed. Suddenly, his life was full of tulips and daisies. He was on cloud nine. BUT.....
Then came an incident which had created fissures in his life. An act of friendship which caused him embarrassment, earned him rebukes and taunts and which had made him feel so disgusted about himself. But the irony is people for whom he showed his friendship had turned their backs on him and accused him of divulging their names to college authorities regarding the tussle with police. He was shattered. He thought how would his parents and his love would take this incident. But he was happy to see that they rather became his support and backed him in his future endeavours. He returned the favour by promising his parents never again to get into situations like these and tried to change himself according to the likeness of his love. But his love started to become a bit restless after a few months. She even came up with this problem and told him that she feels so left-out when people link-up other girls to other boys but they don't even try to do that with her fearing the consequences they would have to face at his hands. He felt as if it was his fault that she is suffering. His act of friendship had turned him into a monster. He hated himself. But she cajoled him saying its not a big deal. Saying this, they continued to be happy being present in each other's life. But there was something he felt that was not going right. There had been a few trivial fights but not any big to cause any damage.
Then came the time when he had to do something to make his this relation permanent i.e something to make her parents agree of this relation. For this, either he should have a decent fat-paying job or he should be well-qualified. Where his academics were concerned and the events that came in before this period, he became an average student from the one very-brilliant one. Though he came to know about the world around him and shed some of the conservative/narrow-minded nature, he was not able to excel much in academics. He was good in extra-curriculars but academics were not his cup of tea. So he settled for whatever job came to him, his first one in an IT company alongwith hundred others. He tried his hand at preparing for competitive exams for post-graduation. He did secure some marks but not enough to get him a seat anywhere. So again the pursuit of job started. Finally he did secure a second one on the basis that his two friends were going there too. Last day of college arrived soon. Everyone in college was full with emotions and fear of leaving friends behind. He, himself, feared of losing and not seeing his love ever again. To fight this, he spent a whole night with her in a coffee shop and while he went to see her off to the station, she gave him, as a memory, a bunch of cash memos of all times they dined in a restaurant. With this his 4 years of life in college came to an end.
After a fortnight, he landed up in a cosmopolitan city with regards to his job. He was very happy to be there and also because of the things that the company had in store for him. He enjoyed his time there, after which he was posted in another cosmo city. He did not complain about this. More so because he found out that his love in college returned to his life. Whether it was sheer luck or his destiny, he did not know. But he definitely knew one thing that till the time she was posted in the same city for her job, he would give ample time to the relation he once had. Though his new office place and the work there sucked big time, he never complained. He was happy to be close to her. He had lengthy discussion about this with her, who too, was very eager to make her relation permanent. But as the months went by, he again started to have those feelings of something not going as thought. She laughed it off saying he was getting paranoid. But his worst fears came true, when small altercations turned into big arguments. It was this time when he thought may be because he was from a middle class family or from a small town which had resulted into this. He started to share these with his room-mates and said its altogether his fault that he has still not able to impart the courage into her to make her parents agree. He also said that its his PHILANTHROPIC nature that has caused all the damage in his life. He tried to be good for the sake of his family. He went against everyone for his friends. He even changed himself for the sake of his love. But what did he get in return? He said its his this inherited trait that may cause further damage. His friends tried to console him and even tried to be mediators between him and his love. But in vain. Then came a time when he and his love parted ways on cordial grounds. No dumping. No bad break-ups. On mutual grounds. But he said he would definitely wait for her to return. To make him happy, his friends went around enjoying every moment with him. They even made new friends. But his mind always wandered off. One of his friends even tried to use rude words in relating to him and that girl, trying to knock him off the whole episode. But he always kept a small flame of hope burning in his heart.
Even after returning from a break to his favourite place, he still has hopes. Hopes, which he claims to be the only thing running his life. Hopes, which his friends think he should give up and move on. But the important thing his friends say is his PHILANTHROPIC nature that he needs to change. A nature which is making a victim out of him. A victim to situations which he used to despise. It is his this nature which has always been an obstacle in his pursuit of goals, a nature which will always result into despair unless he changes.......
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DEVDAS..!!!
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