This is a just a jist of what we did in four years of engg. while being at Durgapur, West Bengal. Every thing here is real, even the people. So this video does not require any disclaimer.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
The Non-egoist Alter Ego
You know, you were never bad or rude by nature. Now I am not saying this because I am you or that I have any vested interests. I am saying this because I feel so. After all, who doesn't have a little bit of evil inside him/her?
Remember the first time you were happy? It was when you got your first prized possession. You never felt this way before. The whole world was such a nice place to live in. But then suddenly you were brought down to earth when you saw something better in some else's hands. In an instant, you felt one of the most powerful feelings existing on Earth-JEALOUSY which was backed by another biggie-RAGE. You wanted to do everything in your might to take away that "better" something from its owner. And then you were in control of those angelic traits of PEACE and SOBRIETY and you tried to calm down. You tried to put in your argument to be but in vain. But again, you had to give into those devilish feelings and thought "If I cannot have something like that, no one shall". You even tried to do that but were forced to withdraw thanks to the good that resides within each one of us.
You see, its not just those tender ages when you have those whims and fancies of doing things that are not exactly appropriate to that situation. You may also notice its not only the happy feelings which start this whole process of emotional flood. It even happens the other way round. There are times when some feelings of RAGE or JEALOUSY or GLOOM may start such a kind of interesting cocktail of emotions. And its not your fault or an anomaly in your body. Its human tendency. Everyone experiences these emotions. You are not unique in this manner. If you are wondering how can RAGE or JEALOUSY trigger such emotions, remember those times when you were facing stiff competition in almost every field? When you thought there is no one better than you and suddenly so many people emerged out of nowhere who eventually became a threat to your very existence. Yes the reason why you live:FAME and PRIDE. Those feelings of RAGE and JEALOUSY gave space to another set of feelings-IGNORANCE, COMPROMISE and DIFFIDENCE. You actually started to adopt a routine where you became a more happy-go-lucky person, much different than the strict person you were. You allowed others to take over, to take advantage of you and you compromised with every little detail in life. This made you a far more shy, unconfident and coward person than you actually were. You realised your mistake. You tried to correct your position. You tried to take help from others. They even helped you but to an extent. They imposed certain conditions, which you actually wanted to follow or agree with, but because of certain restrictions, were not able to. So your self-development plans came to a temporary halt. But by then you observed something very different. You saw that even after so much happened, this whole mess of yours called "LIFE" taught you a lot of things; it gave you so many opportunities that you got to make acquaintances with uncharted territories.
So with this hope that your "LIFE" will teach you something new on each step you take, you tread into into deeper waters, mostly to test your mettle and sometimes because you don't have clear ideas in your mind. Yes. You have this problem of making bad itineraries for every situation. Also when you don't find any competition you start to feel as Mr. Know-It-All. But when you snap back to reality and face serious competition you get nervous and start to falter at every step. You don't play your cards right. You know what?! To keep you in your senses, you should be restricted in some ways so that you don't hurt yourself. Also you need to be mentored. Why, are you forgetting those times, when you were caught unawares by a feeling termed by the people to be the most powerful of all-LOVE. You were bitten by this bug again and again. Each time you thought you loved a female, it was just an infatuation. There were times I remember, when this feeling got so intense that you acted like those crazy smitten actors of Bollywood. You attempted to do everything which would make your one-sided love into a reciprocating affair. But every time you lost the fight to the other "better" person in that female's life. And how can we forget that one time, when this same feeling of LOVE reached its extreme when you finally confessed your love love to that lovely lady, though indirectly, only to be turned down. Oh! You were in such a pathetic condition. What do they say? Ah! Heart-broken. You even considered cutting yourself with blade as an option, thinking why does it always happen to you. Obviously, I agree. It was a difficult time. You were suffering from every point, be it your love-life or professional or anything. I must say, you have a unique quality of not showing your problems on your face. Nice!. But again another feeling took over. This time it was COMPASSION. Not that compassion which emerges from sympathy. It was from the empathy towards yourself and your so-called LOVE. You did not want both of you to suffer. So you kept that thing at bay. But not for long. You still have feelings for her, a ray of hope that someday she would consider you, no matter how much she might ignore or loathe you or sugar-coat her words for you No matter how far she might go, you still hope she would someday fall for you. And that one day, my friend will it ever come? You still wonder. So many people have mocked you for this but still you HOPE.
HOPE, my dear, is a very interesting and an intoxicating fact of life. People who lose their prized possessions or their important aspects of life try to cling to this four-lettered atrocity, which may, mark my words, just may do wonders and give them what they wish for. I say HOPE is intoxicating because even if the situation is getting from bad to worse, people can get out of this enchanted emotion. But its not so bad either, is it? After all, we say, HOPE is the very thing which is driving this world.
Another such interesting fact is LUCK. You see, LUCK, or as some people coin it as DESTINY, does play a major role in each of our life. Everyone wants to make it a part of his/her life. They go by the idiom, "The more, the merrier". I accept that without doing anything, you cannot expect your LUCK to change your fortunes. But isn't it obvious, that you need to be at the right place at the right time to get your work done and this, being at the right place at right time is nothing but LUCK. You may be doing your duty to be at right place but being there at right time is LUCK.
Yeah, I know it has happened to you too and whatever we discussed relates to this LADY LUCK. But do you know a secret? What do you think makes these emotions flow or work? Is it the Heart? The Brain? Huh? Actually both. Its like an Automatic Switch. Both work in-sync with each other. The human body is a wonderful thing. Though the heart and the brain are driving your life forward, something else drives these two. Its the soul. It may not be that prevalent but you can experience or in other words, have this gut-feeling. A human soul is very malleable. It can adopt itself so well an yet sometimes, be as rigid as a rock. Actually, I may need to correct my self. The brain, the heart and the soul exist with a mutual understanding. They are the three legs of a tripod-chair called LIFE. YOU cut one of them and the whole thing topples over. YOU need to take care that you don't get into such situations which would result into disaster. YOU need to nurture all three of them, care good care of the three. So it all depends on YOU; what do you want to feel sense or analyse is entirely your decision. And how does your LIFE go about depends on these decisions you take, however small they may be.
Remember the first time you were happy? It was when you got your first prized possession. You never felt this way before. The whole world was such a nice place to live in. But then suddenly you were brought down to earth when you saw something better in some else's hands. In an instant, you felt one of the most powerful feelings existing on Earth-JEALOUSY which was backed by another biggie-RAGE. You wanted to do everything in your might to take away that "better" something from its owner. And then you were in control of those angelic traits of PEACE and SOBRIETY and you tried to calm down. You tried to put in your argument to be but in vain. But again, you had to give into those devilish feelings and thought "If I cannot have something like that, no one shall". You even tried to do that but were forced to withdraw thanks to the good that resides within each one of us.
You see, its not just those tender ages when you have those whims and fancies of doing things that are not exactly appropriate to that situation. You may also notice its not only the happy feelings which start this whole process of emotional flood. It even happens the other way round. There are times when some feelings of RAGE or JEALOUSY or GLOOM may start such a kind of interesting cocktail of emotions. And its not your fault or an anomaly in your body. Its human tendency. Everyone experiences these emotions. You are not unique in this manner. If you are wondering how can RAGE or JEALOUSY trigger such emotions, remember those times when you were facing stiff competition in almost every field? When you thought there is no one better than you and suddenly so many people emerged out of nowhere who eventually became a threat to your very existence. Yes the reason why you live:FAME and PRIDE. Those feelings of RAGE and JEALOUSY gave space to another set of feelings-IGNORANCE, COMPROMISE and DIFFIDENCE. You actually started to adopt a routine where you became a more happy-go-lucky person, much different than the strict person you were. You allowed others to take over, to take advantage of you and you compromised with every little detail in life. This made you a far more shy, unconfident and coward person than you actually were. You realised your mistake. You tried to correct your position. You tried to take help from others. They even helped you but to an extent. They imposed certain conditions, which you actually wanted to follow or agree with, but because of certain restrictions, were not able to. So your self-development plans came to a temporary halt. But by then you observed something very different. You saw that even after so much happened, this whole mess of yours called "LIFE" taught you a lot of things; it gave you so many opportunities that you got to make acquaintances with uncharted territories.
So with this hope that your "LIFE" will teach you something new on each step you take, you tread into into deeper waters, mostly to test your mettle and sometimes because you don't have clear ideas in your mind. Yes. You have this problem of making bad itineraries for every situation. Also when you don't find any competition you start to feel as Mr. Know-It-All. But when you snap back to reality and face serious competition you get nervous and start to falter at every step. You don't play your cards right. You know what?! To keep you in your senses, you should be restricted in some ways so that you don't hurt yourself. Also you need to be mentored. Why, are you forgetting those times, when you were caught unawares by a feeling termed by the people to be the most powerful of all-LOVE. You were bitten by this bug again and again. Each time you thought you loved a female, it was just an infatuation. There were times I remember, when this feeling got so intense that you acted like those crazy smitten actors of Bollywood. You attempted to do everything which would make your one-sided love into a reciprocating affair. But every time you lost the fight to the other "better" person in that female's life. And how can we forget that one time, when this same feeling of LOVE reached its extreme when you finally confessed your love love to that lovely lady, though indirectly, only to be turned down. Oh! You were in such a pathetic condition. What do they say? Ah! Heart-broken. You even considered cutting yourself with blade as an option, thinking why does it always happen to you. Obviously, I agree. It was a difficult time. You were suffering from every point, be it your love-life or professional or anything. I must say, you have a unique quality of not showing your problems on your face. Nice!. But again another feeling took over. This time it was COMPASSION. Not that compassion which emerges from sympathy. It was from the empathy towards yourself and your so-called LOVE. You did not want both of you to suffer. So you kept that thing at bay. But not for long. You still have feelings for her, a ray of hope that someday she would consider you, no matter how much she might ignore or loathe you or sugar-coat her words for you No matter how far she might go, you still hope she would someday fall for you. And that one day, my friend will it ever come? You still wonder. So many people have mocked you for this but still you HOPE.
HOPE, my dear, is a very interesting and an intoxicating fact of life. People who lose their prized possessions or their important aspects of life try to cling to this four-lettered atrocity, which may, mark my words, just may do wonders and give them what they wish for. I say HOPE is intoxicating because even if the situation is getting from bad to worse, people can get out of this enchanted emotion. But its not so bad either, is it? After all, we say, HOPE is the very thing which is driving this world.
Another such interesting fact is LUCK. You see, LUCK, or as some people coin it as DESTINY, does play a major role in each of our life. Everyone wants to make it a part of his/her life. They go by the idiom, "The more, the merrier". I accept that without doing anything, you cannot expect your LUCK to change your fortunes. But isn't it obvious, that you need to be at the right place at the right time to get your work done and this, being at the right place at right time is nothing but LUCK. You may be doing your duty to be at right place but being there at right time is LUCK.
Yeah, I know it has happened to you too and whatever we discussed relates to this LADY LUCK. But do you know a secret? What do you think makes these emotions flow or work? Is it the Heart? The Brain? Huh? Actually both. Its like an Automatic Switch. Both work in-sync with each other. The human body is a wonderful thing. Though the heart and the brain are driving your life forward, something else drives these two. Its the soul. It may not be that prevalent but you can experience or in other words, have this gut-feeling. A human soul is very malleable. It can adopt itself so well an yet sometimes, be as rigid as a rock. Actually, I may need to correct my self. The brain, the heart and the soul exist with a mutual understanding. They are the three legs of a tripod-chair called LIFE. YOU cut one of them and the whole thing topples over. YOU need to take care that you don't get into such situations which would result into disaster. YOU need to nurture all three of them, care good care of the three. So it all depends on YOU; what do you want to feel sense or analyse is entirely your decision. And how does your LIFE go about depends on these decisions you take, however small they may be.
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